its her Fault..

ITS HER FAULT.. she was the one who hoped in the 1^st place.. she was the one who opened her heart.. she’s not supposed to do such thing.. she’s insane.. she never think it would turn this hurt.. she never thought that it makes her suffer.. she feel like crying.. but her body refuse the insanity.. a drop fall.. then a drop.. its enough.. she can’t cry.. but the feeling insist.. there’s something inside her insist to burst out.. she keep being strong.. fighting herself.. somehow too secretive is just not right.. but she never wish to share this kind of thing w

ith anyone.. not anyone but herself.. its not easy to believe and tell anyone.. yet is hard to keep it alone..

LOVE.. it wasn’t something she should involve with.. it wasn’t something she cant handle if she’s hurted.. because she cant cry.. because she doesn’t share.. she laugh everyday to any jokes.. she smile everyday to anyone.. but she still hurting inside.. hurting for something she wish is hers.. for something she don’t suppose to start.. for something she could not have.. for something too good than her qualification.. for something she could never reach.. for something she cannot hold.. never forever..

HIM.. its okay to be just friend.. its all right to be just an ordinary person.. she don’t care anymore.. its fine not to have him.. she can take it if he was owned by someone else.. is still great if he can say hi.. it would be nice if he just smile.. at least she won’t cry.. but that’s not what happen.. it will be a bit like heaven if it did.. but it doesn’t and it didn’t feel like hell at all.. its just hurt.. hurting too muc

h.. but she still bear it.. but he didn’t even look.. not even a glance.. not even a bit.. he didn’t even sa

y hi and didn’t even smile.. it was the same like back then.. it was a bit like déjà vu.. he just keep quiet.. then he went away.. just like she’s not there.. which means she should give up.. she should just stop.. she never appear in his eyes.. so be it.. accept.. it was her fault really.. she falls with boys too easily.. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP BREAK HER HEART BECAUSE SHE'S TIRED HOLDING THIS PIECES..

(copy from my besties..ma fevret one..)